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Sunday, 30 July 2023

I LOVE A GOOD GHOST STORY




    I mean real stories. Stories from people who have had unexplained experiences. 

    There are folk in my family who have the 'third' eye. That is, people who 'sense' things and have had experiences. Hubby is one of them. His mum was another.  My paternal granny was another.  Son Tom is yet another, although his experiences seem to have faded. 

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    When Tom was a young teen, we rented a railway carriage in a disused railway station turned holiday rental. He woke one night, looked out of his window and witnessed what appeared to be a Victorian tea party on the station platform. He thought perhaps it was a re-enactment of sorts. All the men wore top hats, the ladies were long dresses and the scene was lit by gas lamps. Tom, like hubby, could only relate what he experienced. I wish I'd asked our hosts about any hauntings! 

    I don't have the 'third'eye'. I'm grateful in a way. I have an enormous imagination and get spooked too easily. I love these spooky stories and watching ghost shows on the telly and I'll happily watch ghost hunters scream like girls and run away, but I couldn't ghost hunt myself. I tried it twice and didn't like it!

    My first try out on a ghost tour were the Edinburgh Vaults that lie beneath the city streets. These were lived in by poverty stricken folk two hundred years ago. Talk about creepy. We decided to give a tour a go. After all, why not? 😱 The guide carried a torch and she was a very good story teller. Too good. 




    At one point we passed through a door into a room - essentially a cave hewn out of the bedrock - and she told us she would shut the door behind us and switch off her torch. We would stand in the pitch black and, if we were lucky (!), we might feel little fingers take our hands, particularly those of the ladies. Shite! This would be the spirit of a little girl who had died here a couple of hundred years ago and was known to take the hands of visitors - particularly ladies. I gripped onto hubby. No ghost is holding my hand! This was my first bona fide ghost hunt and I didn't like it! He of the third eye whispered to me that he could sense nothing. He wasn't just trying to make me feel better. 

    Hubby senses stuff. Always has. He has a scientific mind not given to embellishments. He tells me his experiences and he's reporting the facts as they happen. He never denies people their experiences. So I believed him when he said that he could sense nothing, but that didn't stop me having the creeps. The tour guide switched on her torch again and opened the door onto the street, I shot out of there like the proverbial bat out of hell. 




    The next part of the tour was Greyfriars Cemetery and church. The outside tour was fine, but given the opportunity of being locked behind a wrought iron gate inside the crypt containing the coffins set deep within the walls, this bat shot off again. 'No way! Stuff that!'. 

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    My next experience was a visit with hubby and our ghost hunting son to Alton Cemetery, where Fanny Adams is buried. (I think the majority of us are aware of Fanny and her horrific story. Above is a link to the story if you aren't).



FANNY 


    I thought: Outside, I feel safe. I can escape if I need to. We stood beside Fanny's stone cross and son held his EVP (electronic voice phenomenon detector. See? I know these things!) over her grave. Tom said 'hello' to Fanny's spirit, and said that we would love to communicate. Nothing happened, and I felt fine, although hubby did sense that the coffin was empty (he feels now that his sense was misled). 

    Recently, Tom suggested a ghost hunt for me as a Mother's Day gift. As you do. The idea appealed tremendously, and since I'd been fine at Fanny's grave, I assumed I'd be fine with this, too. Tom arranged a nocturnal visit to Chawton Cemetery, just up the road from Chawton Village, where Jane Austen lived out her last years, and is a half hour walk from Alton. 




    Tom took his ghost hunting equipment with him. We arrived at the end of a dirt path and a belt of trees where the cemetery lay. It was pitch black apart from Tom's torchlight on the gravestones *shiver*, and the only sounds were distant traffic. I began to feel spooked. Tom set up his spook equipment - movement detector, camera and voice recorder. He switched his torch off and asked if there were any spirits present. Could we talk to them? Nothing happened but my imagination was going barmy. He said that he was going to move on to another part of the  graveyard, but I shook my head. 'No - can't do this!' Tom said. 'Right. Time to go home.' 




    Tom has had results from ghost hunting before. He's captured orbs on his phone a number of times recorded voices, heard heavy breathing. He always reported back his findings. Of course, many folk think it's a load of old hooey. Fair enough, but I believe that there's something in it because there has been so much evidence over the years. Plus hubby's experiences - he's had too many to mention - have convinced me. 

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    I have had a personal experience. Whether ghostly or not it's impossible to say. Hubby and I stayed in his sister's hundred-years-old cottage in Wales a few years ago. One of the bedrooms lay separated from the other rooms along a narrow hallway. It looked very untouched and remained as it must have looked way back. The rough and tumble walls were whitewashed and part of the wall served as a bookshelf. I did love it. I love places like this. But sleep in it? This was to be my room, and hubby slept next to the sitting room in the more 'modern' area. 

    We retired to bed. I switched off the light and settled down. Then I began to hear what sounded like a deep male laugh coming from behind the exterior wall. 'Ho-ho-ho...'. I switched on my light. Of course there was nothing. Besides, there were no neighbours, no buildings on the other side of that wall. Just fields. I shrugged and settled back down again. The laughing began again. A very deep, slow 'Ho-ho-ho' sound coming from the other side of that wall. Switch the light back on. Nothing. Switch off. Settle down. 'Ho-ho-ho.' That's it. I switched the light on, grabbed my dressing gown, marched to hubby's room and dragged him awake. 'You can sleep in that room. It's giving me the creeps.' He did, and slept like the proverbial log. 

The following day, after hubby insisted it must have been neighbours, I pointed out that there were none. Just fields. Later, Tom admitted that he'd felt weird in that room and didn't want to sleep in it. 

    I'm a tad disappointed that I couldn't hack ghost hunting. I like different, and ghost hunting is different, but I get the creeps in historic hotel bedrooms. So no - I just have to watch those ghost shows and have Tom report back to me after his ghost hunt and hubby passing on his experiences as they happen. At least I have that, and hubby's stories get noted in my Keep Notes under 'G Spooky Moments'. 

    My own personal spooky stories, told to me and only me. 



 
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Sunday, 23 July 2023

JO. B. CREATIVE!: DO YOU LOVE WESTERNS WRITTEN FROM A DIFFERENT ANGL...

JO. B. CREATIVE!: DO YOU LOVE WESTERNS WRITTEN FROM A DIFFERENT ANGL...: Are you a fan of westerns and are you looking for a different take on the genre?  Do you enjoy stories about cowboys, cowgirls and outlaws ...

DO YOU LOVE WESTERNS WRITTEN FROM A DIFFERENT ANGLE? (LGBTQ+)



Are you a fan of westerns and are you looking for a different take on the genre?  Do you enjoy stories about cowboys, cowgirls and outlaws written from a different angle and presenting the protagonist through a fresh lens?

In Alias Jeannie Delaney - Book 1 - Go West, Girl! - an epic western adventure, readers will embark on a heart stopping journey through the wild frontier. This story explores the life of charismatic cowgirl Jeannie Morgan, a devastatingly beautiful pants-wearing tomboy who flicks a proverbial finger at societal norms of the period with contempt. Her speed with a gun is faster than the strike of rattler, proving that she's a force to be reckoned with and that she can out shoot every man in her vicinity. She's also a great lover to both men and women. 




She's unstoppable and extraordinary. As tough as a blacksmith's nails, but is contrarily gentle, kind and funny. However, her discovery of her 'strange' sexuality turns her world upside down. She fights jealousies, strives for acceptance and struggles with love and hate. This raw, in-depth read will transport you back to the old west, following the trials and tribulations of a sexually ambiguous cowgirl on the run from her past.

This maverick uses her wits, her magnetism and her guns to survive like no-one else can, forging a trail through a world that adores and despises her in equal measure, encountering a cast of unforgettable characters. Drawn to the allure of rebellion and justice, she finds herself entangled in the world of outlawry, becoming a dynamic legend en route.

Finally her singular talents are in demand, forcing her towards a potentially dangerous future. She is lead to work towards her greatest goal where her knowledge and power come into their own, But she must first face and conquer personal trials and tragedy.

Alias Jeannie Delaney – Book 1 – Go West, Girl!, sets the stage for a groundbreaking series that challenges conventions. So saddle up and join Jeannie on her journey and prepare to become immersed in her story while she sets the old west on fire.


 


The e-book and paperback are available on Amazon. 

Lastly, here are two brilliant five star reviews from Booksprout: 

A unique western read. Five stars. 
This is a different take on a western and I really enjoyed it. Jeannie is an independent woman focused on living her life on her terms before it was socially acceptable to do so. It is well written and entertaining! 

Great western story! *****
Not like any Western book I've ever read... Jeannie is best described as a difficult child. I love her grown-up character. She lives life on her own terms, not always liked but well-respected. I'm looking forward to more stories of her life. 


          
           KIT MACKENZIE & HER FABULOUS                 
SOULMATE HUBBY/PERSONAL ASSISTANT! 



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Saturday, 15 July 2023

WHAT IF ALIAS JEANNIE DELANEY WAS A MUSICAL...

What if Alias Jeannie Delaney was a musical...



I love all kinds of music. A lot of classics (some of it makes me swoon!), some jazz, rock n' roll, some pop, eighties electronic, and bang up-to-date music. I love some rap, Dance, and progressive rock. We turn it up loud when we're driving. 😄




I don't enjoy musicals that much. I was brought up on them because my Dad, particularly, loved them. Although I quite liked them back then, that put me off 'em big time. The one that struck a chord (!) however, was West Side Story


The dancing was fabulous and some of the songs were very emotive. But - I also love a lot of the numbers from western musicals, including Paint Your Wagon



Sadly I haven't been able to listen to western musicals much in adulthood because, being westerns, they make me feel very emotional and sometimes very sad (complicated story...). 

I've watched snippets of Doris Day's 1953 Calamity Jane and have mixed feelings about it. I love some of the numbers - enormous fun - and the early scenes are brilliant. I'm not keen on My Secret Love (when she's yearning for Wild Bill) although I love her Calamity costumes, and I hate it when the story ends with her as a bride being driven off by Bill. Ruins the whole thing! I know this was the fifties, and getting women back into the home after the war was the thing, but - aaarrgh! Did they have to? Calamity was never tamed. 



   CALAMITY JANE

Now don't laugh. I listen to loads of emotional and upbeat songs, and in my fantasies, Jeannie is singing them. She dances in the novel.  (She's a terrific dancer of jigs, upbeat numbers of the day - of course she is!). Yes, she sings in my fantasies, in an androgynous voice. 

This is something I've thought many times: What if Alias Jeannie Delaney was a musical? 😃


Robbie Williams's Feel is one such song that Jeannie sings in my head and I absolutely love it! I wasn't able to listen to that because it made me feel very emotional and sad and the setting is western and he's riding a horse. Jeannie is singing about her feelings for Vicky, her girlfriend, before they declare their love for one another, and it's belted out and extremely emotional. (Oops - teaser ...). 

                                                 ROBBIE WILLIAMS - FEEL


The other numbers I love are The Weekends Blinding Light. 
Broken Wings is another, and The Big Country yet another. I definitely can't listen to the latter without bursting into a blubbery mess!

                              THE WEEKEND - BLINDING LIGHT


                                 MR.MISTER - BROKEN WINGS


                                        

I've had these thoughts and fantasies for years and never told anyone for fear of ridicule. But nobody has ridiculed me. Hubby says: 'What's wrong with that? It's great!' 

I had to say something because it's so emotive (intense feelings - huge) and keeping that secretive was doing my head in.

Yes, music can be soooo emotive!






 

Friday, 14 July 2023

THE LOOK OF JEANNIE DELANEY

(P.S. My apologies in advance for Blogger's probable different colour fonts when posts are published. I gave up fixing them after a length of time blogging. That's blogging for you!)



Alias Jeannie Delaney - Book 1 - Go West, Girl! is on promotion for free from Amazon from 15th - 19th November (here's the promotion link: 

I've shared this post before, but, following this promotion, I felt the real need to talk about Jeannie, my protagonist. 

I've visualized her almost since my teens, and I know exactly what she looks like and her persona! I had to work on her image to create illustrations of her the way I imagined her. Being an artist helped. 

In my teens I daydreamed about her before going to sleep and I found her and her story incredibly exciting. Eventually I needed to create illustrations of her. The initial images were amateurish - they would be - I was young and hadn't learned how to use water colour properly, laying the colour down nicely. I'm a harsh critic of myself!


  

This is one of my first images of Jeannie, back in my teens,
using a photo for reference. Not the best water colour technique, but I was young ... I worked hard on her image over the years, to get her the way I wanted her. I settled for tomboy beauty and that seemed to work. 


                                

                                     


As the years passed I grew more mature as an artist. My images grew more sophisticated, but I was terrified of revealing her. I finally showed her to hubby. I hid under a pillow, then he told me she was sexy! I loved him even more for that.


                                     

         

These images are familiar to a lot of readers! I based them on magazine photographs and they're my favourites. They really show Jeannie how I see her. 

Some folk ask if I ever visualise Jeannie as a kid. I do. When she adopts her tomboy image as an eight year old, I see her as a Tom Sawyer urchin kid. 


JEANNIE AS A KID/TOM SAWYER.


And now - a few spoilers describing her...

It was fascinating to watch Jeannie Morgan working her magic. She moved towards the idiots and gave the pair of them her heavy lidded, unblinking, soul destroying gaze. Her head was slightly lowered as she looked up and loaded that gaze upon them. They froze on the spot. Her right hand inched towards the grip of her holstered gun. They turned tail, scrambled towards their horses, mounted up and galloped back through the forest.

Her boyish beauty and charisma was legendary, and here it was. My mouth gawped open, I stared round eyed at her and my pain was forgotten. She crouched in front of me and her close proximity washed over me..

Jeannie Morgan held the look of a gorgeous youth with feminine overtones. It was well known that she was capable of leaving young women dangerously breathless, but my lengthy, mesmerized scrutiny revealed the truth of her gender. A red and white Indian bandanna bound collar length, tousled fair hair. A fringe covered half her forehead. A totally unorthodox approach for a white woman.

Our gazes clashed. Hers, an iridescent, milky pale blue, won. I was anchored to the spot, frozen, and my heart thundered. She reached for my hand and, trembling with emotion, I took it. A gentle, warm, pleasant hand. She pulled me to my feet and I clutched my burning arm...  Tenderness surged those eyes which narrowed in concern.

‘Okay, darlin'? Jees – yer bleedin' badly, huh?' She studied my blood soaked sleeve and nodded towards a flat boulder. ‘Sit there an’ let’s take a look, darlin'. ...

Honey. Her voice was like honey, with a western twang, the 'r's' pronounced. I nodded. Oh, God. I fancy her like mad! 

I sat on a boulder looking up at her. I dragged free of that discomforting, seductive gaze as she grinned her toothy crooked grin. Gentle dimples in her cheeks deepened. My heart hammered. My face burned with... jealousy! What? I wanted to be her. 

Her sensuality distracted me from the pain as she crouched again and helped me remove my jacket. ...  The bullet had skimmed the skin, leaving an ugly ragged line. She cradled my arm in a strong, bronzed hand. Her veins were prominent, the skin a silken sheen.

That was so nice, the feeling of her hands upon me. Her presence and her voice bolted shivers through me.
‘We gotta bandage it, darlin', huh?’
She grinned at my mesmeric gaze. Her slim fingers – her nails pale against her golden skin – unknotted her bandana and used it to carefully bind my arm.

'You’re gonna have a scar, darlin'.’

I glanced at the white trail across the inside of her right wrist, and the fine golden down on her forearm, touched by sunlight. On her left wrist she wore a selection of thin leather bracelets and a signet ring on her index finger. She regarded me and I coloured. She smiled gently...

I chuckled and nodded and she grinned back and crinkled her nose. She was one of those people who, when they talk to you, make you feel that you're the most important person in the world. While she crouched down there, my gaze meandered the curve of her long, womanly neck – a small Indian pendant on a leather thong hung against her smooth brown chest. She peered intently at me, her eyes slightly narrowed.

She was tall, approaching six foot. 

‘My horse bolted. It’s not far. I can walk.’

‘Sure. Okay. ''S'pect yer hoss went home. You take care now.’
She flashed her grin and winked – that charismatic magnetism could fill the whole forest. I managed a jocular salute and she chuckled and threw her head back, her jaw and neck revealed in all their sexuality. She touched fingertip to thumb between her lips and whistled. A soft rustling preceded the entry of a beautiful brown horse with a white muzzle into the clearing. She leaped into the saddle and returned my salute.
‘Ciao, darlin’!’
She circled her horse, nudged him into the forest and was gone. I gaped at the spot where she'd been and touched the scarf at my arm. I felt emotionally, and physically, shattered.'


I usually envisage Jeannie either as a young woman or middle aged woman. Obviously she ages, but remains youthful even on the open range, lucky critter. Hah! She's 5ft 10" tall. Athletic, lithe. Slim, broad shouldered and slim hipped, even all the way down. She swaggers and strides but her movements are almost graceful. 

I worked hard to get her the way I wanted her, and in the intervening years I've added to her image to make her incredibly stylish with panache, whether dressed as a dirt ingrained and sweating cowgirl or in classy jacket, velvet pants and frilled cravat at her neck, for posh events. She looks positively Goth at times! I've worked hard on her persona as well. Various magazine, TV images, series and films have inspired me over the years, smacking me in the eyeballs and making me think: That's the way I want Jeannie!



NOT JEANNIE (OBVIOUSLY)
BUT I LOVE THE LOOK!

 A fine photographic portrait appeared. I was surprised, considering her famed hatred of photographers, and her well known intolerance – a cool, uncompromising expression, starkly contrasted to her equally famous joky, fun-loving persona.

 I could imagine the poor photographer trembling as that cobra lidded, luxuriously lashed almond pale blue gaze cut him in two. Her weathered tan emphasized their luminosity. Some of her features were fine, almost effeminate.

The sepia photograph showed smooth, feminine brows arced gently, then sloped. High cheekbones, lightly dimpled cheeks, perfect nose and wide, curved, generous female mouth proclaimed beauty. The lips were sensual but unsmiling above a gently squared chin and hero’s jaw. Her thick hair tumbled over her collar at the back and curled in front of her ears. Her open shirt exposed feminine throat and chest, narrowly plunging to tease, barely revealing womanly cleavage.

It seemed futile to resist studying every facet of Jeannie's physique. She was magnificent and irresistible and she knew it. Coyote Creek knew it too. I imagined the response that her presence provoked. Acknowledgements and calls from everyone, not all necessarily friendly.

Yes, I was jealous. Yes, I wanted her like mad. And yes, I wanted to enter her domain.'

So there you are - Jeannie as I envisage her! I love her image, I hope you do too. 






My front cover.
Not the Jeannie I've envisaged,
but my cover designer did extremely
well considering I was so demanding!
Very pleased with the result.  



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Tuesday, 11 July 2023

I'M A PANSTER!




When it came to crafting Alias Jeannie Delaney, I pantsed my way through it. 

Plotters are just that - they're the polar opposite. Some plan their novels to the 'nth' degree and have white boards on their walls and black felt tip pens and draw up their fictional family trees and biographies for their characters. Some even begin doing that before they've typed 'Once upon a time...'. 

Mine grew organically to the 'nth' degree. You might know of some of my story. I had an idea for a story and had created loads of illustrations of Jeannie when no-one was looking. I was sooo embarrassed about the whole idea - you know, all that violence, blood, gore and juicy adult scenes you wouldn't want to show your mother. 

I got to the point, after I married my soulmate, when I needed to show someone what I had done and was thinking, gritted my teeth and told hubby all about it. He demanded to see my illustrations. I blushed to the shade of old beetroot, shoved the illustrations under his nose and retreated to the bedroom and hid under a pillow. 

I emerged from under the pillow and hubby called me back. My knees trembled and I felt hot and bothered as he stated: 'Jeannie's sexy - you've got to write her story! Get on with it.' My relief was beyond description. He liked it! Yay!

So get on with it I did. When my daughter was born in 1985, I bottle fed her one-handed and began typing with my other hand. That was the start. 

The story grew organically in fits and starts. An exciting image would pop into my head and I'd weave it into the story. Then there'd be long gaps between writing and not writing. There came a point when I decided that the story had to be finished, by the proverbial hook or by crook. I managed to finish it and typed 'End' at the end. As good a place as any.

Of course I felt pleased with myself, but I never felt ecstatic about it like Kathleen Turner did as Joan Wilder, sobbing with joy when she typed 'The End' in Romancing the Stone. 


I read a lot about writing and learned about pansters and planners. My writing improved as time wore on. It has always been said that your first novel is the one you practice on. Then you chuck it into the back of a drawer and start the next. 

Mine is my first-second-third novel and it's been one huge learning curve and one huge novel. When I looked back to the beginning after I'd typed 'End' for the umpteenth time, I realized just how much my writing had grown. This had been my practice novel once, and now it ended up being the novel. 


I've mentioned many times that I wanted/needed to write this novel, which turned into three. I had no choice. I was really excited about the subject matter and Jeannie. I felt she was OTT (over the top) but I couldn't stop writing her story. I woke up one morning, noticed the cat jumping on top of the laundry basket and blearily croaked out: 'Jeannie - get off the basket.'! 

Yes, Jeannie is OTT, but what the hell! That's part of the story. Her over the top-ness, and I couldn't make her less beautiful, less charismatic, less devastating. If I had, she wouldn't have been Jeannie and folks wouldn't have been jealous of her or fancied her like mad. 

That's her story.

The nuisance part of being a panster is the part where I haven't noted - on white boards or anywhere - details about some of the characters who appear regularly in the novel. 

F'instance, in Book 2, which I've started editing, Jeannie has left town because she's had enough of the treatment she's received while growing up. 'Her gang' - the boys who allied with her and accumulated around her, follow her and join her on her trail. I know who three of them are, but I'm confused over the other two. Who are they? What are their backgrounds? Families? Interests? What do they look like? Something I should have sorted out during the writing, as a planner would have done. But, I'm told, you are where you are and you write as you write. Don't angst over it too much. 

This is where pantstering is a pain. Eh well, as they say, if you're a panster, you're a panster. But hell - I could have done with being a planner! *Grumble* 😣





















Tuesday, 4 July 2023

AND NOW... MY VIDEO TRAILER INTRODUCING ALIAS JEANNIE DELANEY - GO WEST, GIRL!


ALIAS JEANNIE DELANEY - 

GO WEST, GIRL!



Here it is...

My video trailer for my novel trilogy Alias Jeannie Delaney - Book One: Go West, Girl!  

The e-novel is available for pre-orders now and the paperback will be available on the day. Just go to Amazon and order from there! 

I'm creating a separate post about the making of it - which was very interesting, too. Watching hubby using Clipchamp the video maker, fascinated me, and it's given me the idea of using video and YouTube to post on the making of art. 

I don't usually like seeing film or photos of me, but this has given me more confidence and the willingness to have a try. You never know...