MISSING MY STORY!

MISSING MY STORY!

Do you know, when I'm not working on my story (Alias Jeannie Delaney) I'm missing both it and Jeannie! 

I've spent so many years writing, reading and editing my epic western, the life story Alias Jeannie Delaney, and illustrating her, that when I've come away from it to concentrate on the marketing and promotion of it, or doing something other than anything connected to her, then I've missed her. 

Not surprising really, when you think about it. So much of my time has been spent on ruminating and thinking about it, researching the facts, creating the plot and the story, and finally, after many years, self publishing Books 1 and 2 and now, reading and editing Book 3. 

If you've been following me or reading the story, I'm sure you'll appreciate that I'm rather attached to Jeannie. She fascinates me and every time I work on her story, I'm excited by it. I love it! That must say something about it- that it's a good one. At no point have I ever grown bored with it. It excites me at every turn, although it's given me tremendous trials and tribulations, mostly mental, with depression, and not understanding why this is. After all, I'm working on something that excites me, so how can I be depressed over it? 

I can only tell you what happens, factually. No rhyme or reason for any of it. I've explained in previous posts the basis of my mental health issues due to biological family emotional abuse and neglect, particularly after having children. I escaped into my story and created the other 'me'. Mind you, I'm not tough like she is, or scary, or devastating in appearance and persona. I'm not unattractive, and I'm more like Doris Day's 1953 Calamity Jane - cheeky and funny. (Sheer coincidence that the film was made in the year of my birth!). I can't watch the end of that because Calamity is driven away by Wild Bill to their honeymoon, wearing full bridal gear. She's been tamed, dammit! 

Anyway, enough of that. In order to refresh my work on Jeannie, and get close to her again, I'm going to make more illustrations of her. I've been meaning to do that forever, and with the aid of graphics packages and inspiration from AI, I will do so.